I Will Not Thank a Sunny Day (2019) [edit 2022]

I Will Not Thank a Sunny Day
(2019) [edit 2022]

Traveling frayed
I’d have thanked a sunny day
if rain had not fallen, and

I’d have praised an ancient sun
if bop rain had not plopped,

a rain dance not done,
Anastasia
between
the omen drops

and then if rain had not brought
what ought to be hallucinations —
a vision of a bird on a porch — then I’d have
praised a sunny empty day, but rain

seemed like siren music, and
I knew I had to take an exit ramp,
had to visit the porch of her ranch.

In praise of rain, and reigning shelter
Anastasia cared for me,
and for a sick bird there
still wet, still breathing, so

I’d have thanked a sunny day
not coming to love
the chirps and songs of you
in the reigning beauty of rain.